If you have kids you know that parenting can have it’s ups, downs, feelings and emotions that nothing else in this world could ever induce…and of course, heart break.
I love being a Dad. Having someone who looks up to me and someone to teach means the world to me. Many of you know that I suffer from Chronic Kidney Disease which requires dialysis treatment every 2nd day. This means that I’m gone from 11 am until 7 pm (traveling included) and I’m usually feeling drained and hungry when I return home. This also means that I don’t get to spend as much time with my son as I’d like because he’s normally getting ready for bed by the time I get home after being gone all day.
While there are many, many things that I miss being able to do because of the catheter in my chest, the one I miss the most is being able to cuddle with my son, wrestle around,and give him piggy backs like dads do. What makes the heartbreak worse is that he feels the same way and said to his mother, “Remember when daddy used to be able to pick me up before he had his boo-boo? I miss that.” Talk about a tearjerker!
I knew that there would be a lot of time away from my family, and I knew that there would be many things that I could no longer do, but not holding my child is something I never imagined.
This is heartbreaking parenting at its finest and I’m ready for this disease to go away so I can get back to being a Dad!
*If you would like read more about my preparation for my double transplant please click here.
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