It’s been 29 days since I was admitted to the hospital for renal failure and it’s been the hardest time of my life! 29 days and counting since I’ve had my son and wife around and I can truly say that you don’t realize how much you love someone until they aren’t there. Even though they’ve come to visit and we talk on the phone a couple of times a day it’s still very difficult being away from the ones you love for such a long time. I can honestly say that absence does make the heart grow fonder!
Every morning I wake up alone and every night I fall asleep the same way. During the day I hear the children on my ward crying and every day it breaks my heart. The days seem extremely long without the sounds of my little guy causing a ruckus or the cat’s annoying meows or my wife telling me that she loves me!
I’m discouraged, heartbroken and feeling quite sad sitting here writing this post and while I know it’s for my health and well-being, it’s not what I expected and I sincerely wish I could turn back time! Day’s of loneliness and hours of dialysis are NOT fun and I would give anything to go back in time and kick myself in the ass!
I was warned as a kid that if I didn’t take care of my diabetes there would be consequences and now here I am; 30 years old with failing kidneys, numerous dialysis appointments, eye haemorrhaging and multiple other health problems. GOD how I wish I could go back! By no means am I looking for sympathy. If anything I’m hoping that some how, some way, my experience will open the eyes of those that are as hard headed as I was and am. If you know someone suffering from Diabetes who doesn’t see the damage that they’re doing to their bodies please direct them to this post or better yet, have them send me a message. This disease is nothing to scoff at and must be taken seriously. Don’t take your health for granted because one day your health might not be there!